Mandii's First Time Going Out Dressed

At 18 I had finished high school and was working second shift.  Still living at the time.

I had most my own clothes by now.  Being brave in boy mode buying things.  It was a nice warm spring day.  I decided to dress up and for the first time go out in public.  Both parents were working.

I took a shower and shaved my legs.  Slipped on a bra and panties.  I was still using water balloons as breasts. Now what to wear?  I decided if I was going to be out during the day I should try to look like a woman that was on her break from the office.  I got my black pencil skirt, a white blouse and nude pantyhose.  I put on the pantyhose, then a black half slip.  Put on the blouse and then the skirt.

I took my makeup into the bathroom and started on my face.  Foundation first.  Followed by eyeliner, mascara, and eyeshadow.  I lightly penciled my eyebrows.  Then I applied some blush.  It took about an hour to do my makeup.

Got out my dirty-blonde colored wig from K-mart.  (Yes K-mart at that time sold wigs!  Buying that wig in boy-mode was a heart stopper but I did it.)  I fixed the wig and when I was done I though I looked amazing. I put on some clip earrings I had bought, and borrowed a neckless and a ring from my mom.

I then put on my black high heeled pumps.  Boy I sure love the sound of walking in high heels.  As always last I put on my red lipstick.  I got that exciting lump in my chest.  I needed to go out in public.  I grabbed a purse of my moms and borrowed a little of her perfume. 

I was so excited, but scared.  I put my lipstick and my wallet in the purse with some tissues.  Put the purse on my shoulder and looked at myself in the full length mirror.  I loved what I saw.

Now to got out of the house and to the car.  I must have walked around the house looking out of the windows for about 20 minutes.  Is it safe?  Will anyone see me?

I finally dashed out the door and down the walk to the driveway.  My high heels clicking on the cement walkway.  I made it to my car.  I put my purse on the seat beside me.  Boy the pedals sure feel different in high heels.  I drove off to the mall.  I couldn't stop looking in the review mirror at the woman driving the car.

I got got the mall.  It was late morning and there were a number of cars in the lot.  Now where do I park?  How far away?  I want to walk in these heels!

I parked the car not too close and not too far away.  Checked my lipstick in the mirror and fluffed my hair.  This is it!  I grabbed my purse, put the car keys in it.  Opened the door and swung my nyloned legs out.  Got out of the car, stood up, smoothed my skirt.  I started walking to the Macy's entrance.

OH I felt so wonderful!  The smell of my perfume, the fell on my lipstick.  The wonderful feeling of the skirt brushing my legs.  Looking down I could see my breasts.  The pinch of my earrings.  I was in heaven.

I was careful to walk in feminine steps.  As I got closer to the door a man and woman couple were also approaching the door.  Well this is it, fight the urge to run back to the car.  They got to the door just a little ahead of me. The man let his wife in first.  I was about 5 steps behind them.  Then the most wonderful thing happened.  He waited and held the door open for me!  I walked past past him and smiled and squeaked out a "thank you".  He smiled back and said your welcome.  WOW I was sure people could see me shaking. 

Right away I dived into the ladies department hoping to calm down.  I started to look through the racks of skirts and dresses.  There were a couple of other ladies there, but they did not seem to pay me any mind.  I moved onto the lingerie department.  I was looking at panties when a sales lady sneaked up on me and asked "may I help you miss?".  I said "no thank you, I'm just looking"  in my best girl voice.  She said fine if you need help, let me know.

I was feeling more confident.  I decided to buy a matching black bra and panties.  I looked at the checkout line.  There was a few ladies waiting in line.  I kind of hung back, but then more people got in line.  I would just go for it!  I got in line.  As I was standing there a woman stood behind me.  She was a older woman.  We looked at each other and smiled.  She said "I don't know how you young girls can where those heels all day."  I just smiled and said they're not so bad.  I got to the register and put down my purchase.  Did you find everything the cashier asked.  I said yes thank you.  I took my purchase and headed toward the mall entrance.

I had to walk past all the makeup counters.  The makeup ladies did not seem to pay me much mind.

I started walking in the mall.  I got mostly ignored or nice friendly smiles, mostly from men.  I so loved walking in those shoes.  I went into most of the other women's stores.  Looking at clothes.  I got the same friendly hello's and my I help you?  I did not work up enough courage to actually try something on.  But everyone was very nice.

I went to the upstairs part of the mall.  And there it was.  Victoria's Secrete.  Oh all that wonderful lingerie in the widows.  Do I dare?  Can I pull off being a woman there?  I was feeling very confident at this point.  Yes I would walk in.  And I did.

Oh so many feminine and sexy things.  I walked around looking at everything.  Then a sales girl came up.  Can i help you.  I was getting very courageous.  I said "I'm looking for a garter and stockings".  Right this way, dear.  Hear we are.  What color were you thinking?  White I said.  Well here at the belts and then right over there are the stockings.  Let me know if you need anything.  "thank you" I told her.

I picked out a white lacy four strap garter.  I then went over a picked out two pair of stockings.  I took them up to the counter.  The sales woman smiled.  "Very nice, find everything OK?"  I said yes.  "Are you a member?"  I told her no.  "Would you like to sign up?"  Now this was before email so anything I would have gotten from them would come in the regular mail.  "Not at this time" I said.  She rang up my purchase and put it in a VS bag.  I was going to walk around with a Victoria's Secret bag!  "I love your ring" she told me as I handed her the money from my purse.  I said "thank you, it's my moms".  Have a nice day she told me.  "Thank you for your kindness"  I said.

I left the store.  Did she know I was a CD?  Did not matter - she treated me like a woman and that made me feel wonderful!  The next place I stopped was a Hallmark card shop.  I was just browsing feeling so happy.  I never noticed him.  As I was looking at cards, a man slid up next to me and said "you're very pretty".  Yikes!  What!  I nervously said "thank you", and rushed out the store.  I rushed back down the mall and through Macy's.  I got back in my car.  My heart was pounding!  Did he know I was a crossdresser?  Or did he think I was a young woman?  I sat there looking around, giving myself time to calm down.  When I had calmed down and did not see him, I got out my lipstick and fixed my lips in the mirror.  (I think that is a sexy thing to do).  I then drove home.  

That was my first time in public as Mandii.  I was hooked and almost never dressed again without going out.  I love it so much.

Mandii Mason.